21/12/2010 , 22/12/2010

21/12/2010
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22/12/2010
祝我19岁生日快乐 :)

谢谢你们
给我不同样的19岁生日

♥谢谢你，你真的很棒！♥

这里

这里
曾经陪我经历了多少的风霜

这里
曾经让我熬过多少个难熬的岁月

这里
曾经陪我分享多少的喜悦

这里
曾经让我挥散多少的哀愁与忧伤

这里
曾经陪我走过多少难忘的日子

这里:
并不是一个有人性有感觉有想法的地方
却是我曾经最依赖最信任的地方

或许
人大了就会变，会懒
甚至学会不再相信任何人，事或物
都有了自己的一套想法，做法

许许多多的曾经
也只能是曾经了
毕竟岁月早已逝
想留住的放下的
早已成过眼云烟
能忘怀释怀的事
早已忘记释下了.

可是
有这里
就是有永久的记录点了.

谢谢你们,想念你们.

呵呵

一段日子了..
时不时上来察看..
却下不了手..

上一篇写要学习接受..
四个月左右了吧..
依然..还是要学习接受..

不过已有了很大的变化..
愿这都是好的变化吧..=)

心病还需心药治，解铃还是系铃人..
突然很欣赏这句话..^^

Museum Negara 04/06/10

开心可以很简单..
不开心可以很容易..

不开心其实只是因为接受不到..
不过现在我会选择接受了...
不过是会努力接受啦..=D

开心..

孩子

原来..
我也只是一个小孩..

承受不了很多我以为我承受的了的事..

或许..
我太不成熟了..

其实..
梦有时候更能让我开心..
只不过也会有醒来的一刻...

爱人

每个人的一生中都有上千万个爱人…

之前的因为错的时间与时机，大家没有一起…

直到现在遇到一个同时产生感觉的彼此…在一起了…

后来的…因为迟来了…感觉已给了她，所以大家只能当朋友…

可是我们的心底始终会保留一个位子给那个不属于你的她/他…

100篇后的第一篇

牵一发而引动全身？
大家的部落好象都为些事而有所困扰…

懒惰虫真的很可怕…
你们的部落我都有看…
可是就如我懒惰update一样懒得留言…

好吧…
也许世界上最令人甜蜜的事是爱…但最苦涩的也可能是爱…
既然放下，又何苦想不通呢？
不否认我很渴望有伴…但这并不表示单身糟透了…我有朋友，有家人，有你们，唯一缺少的只是一个我爱她的同时她也爱我的这个关系…有那么大不了吗？也许……

就在大家部落都有点低潮的这时，其实你们都是我很在乎的人…友情？亲情？爱情？
其实只在于你们怎样看待我…
我最常做的事，就是看我和你们的合照…勾起我段段最美最甜最好的回忆…

跟你们这群人的不断出去…
拜五似乎是我新一年里晚上一定不在家里吃晚餐的一天…
不过…这也是我很享受的一天…我不为去哪里而烦恼，其实只是因为出去的人是重点，而地点顶多是陪衬…

发生了好多事啊最近…
当人对活在这世上有感到厌倦的一天，或许是好事…
证明他在乎这世界…

为什么我和你的对话不多？
因为我想要的是听你的声音…看你讲话的动作，注意你丰富的表情………
这一切…令我觉得我的声音其实并不重要…

第100篇

命运再次注定了..
第100篇..
我留了给你..

2010年4月20日
早上天空就下起了连绵细雨..
看似灰暗..
但我的心情就刚好呈反比..
充满了忐忑与期待..
想像的都是美好事物..=)

我不知道自己能帮到你多少..
能做的又有多少..
在你心中的分量又是多少..
似乎对我而言都是xyz

但第一次的与你独处
面对面谈话
第一次载送你回家（抱歉..我特地放慢了速度..=P)
还有几个的第一次..
总会让我嘴角泛起微笑..
夸张点而言..
也许这是我有记忆以来最开心的一天..
还会有下次吗？

不过今天还是有点美中不足的是..
那个ah lui剪了头发..
嫌太短不开心..><
不然今天绝对会是美好一天..

朋友们..
每一次的和你们出街
无论
看戏吃饭唱K逛街筹款比赛看表演...........
我只想说我也是很开心的..
每一次..
我都真心想跟你们一起..
我享受我们一起的时光..
所以..
不要吃醋噢..=D

撞车记...

09/04/10

当命运注定你该如此..
也许有时候你真的无能为力..

曾经幻想无数百次撞车的情景..
幻想自己撞车会是什么样的情形...

这一天..
大雨天..积水路..树枝在马路上..
其实不足以导致车祸吧..

偏偏有些人驾车就是不思考..
好吧..
紧急刹车是吗？
好！我刹！
有时候庆幸的确不应该在事发的情况下感受的..
只有真真结束厄运才该庆幸..
刹的及车后..就在庆幸着没撞到时..只庆了一半..
后面的车居然帮了我一把..实现我的幻想..
就酱三辆车撞在一起..
扭到旧伤未愈的右手..
下车淋雨讲数..
警局报警录口供..
全数到齐..><

算了吧..
人没事就好..
车就..
抱歉啦..

如果当天我做其他的决定..
我想的选择全都不做..
只想着提早回家看戏..
结果..
唉..
命运吧..

想不到我的部落格竟然有一篇留给车祸..
哈哈..
试过了..
不枉此生吧..

过了今天..
我能活在这个世界的日子又减少一天..
希望能快乐得过吧..

愿家人朋友们..
过得快乐健康..

想念..

经过你和我一起去过的地方..
路过的建筑物..
勾起段段回忆..

无意的路途..
让我脸上泛起一丝丝的微笑..
面对着繁忙的公路..
脑里也只有你的容貌..
和你最甜美的笑容...
塞车那令人烦躁的情绪..
仿佛已不属于这个世界..

我们一起经历过的事..
是我最甜美的回忆..

今天又和ah lui经过多一次..
感觉..
依然那么美妙..=P

想你..

想念..

请别怪我不会想起你..

因为...

我从来就没有忘记过你..

给舅舅篇:开始是离别是开始

给超疼我的肥舅（我一直都觉得酱叫你很亲切^^）：

开始是离别是开始..

离别的心情是苦涩的..
也许即将面临的离别比现在就离别还要痛苦折磨..

开始是甜蜜的..
即将开始的心情比现在开始来的忐忑..来的期待..来的紧张..

但..
开始是离别..
离别是开始..
好像听了无数次吧..

为什么两者的感觉有着天壤之别？
想不透..猜不透..看不透..悟不透..

尖端科技又如何..
没错..我们着实能面对面聊天..一样能看见对方..
彼此间肥了瘦了高了矮了
豆豆多了胡子长了
全都一目了然..
那又怎样？

我要的其实只是彼此在附近的那种感觉
也许没有话题..也许只能静静坐着..
但我们至少还有可能看同一场戏..吃同一间餐馆的食物........

相隔异地的感受很不好..
也许你比我更堪..

最少我的亲戚全在此
而你却独自在异地打拼..
思乡之苦当然比我思亲之苦来的更堪..

我没有任何哀怨的理由..
你的表面是那么的坚强..我没有摆出脆弱的理由..
但你内心的不舍..我看到了..你的朋友也看到了..
永远都是那么压抑自己..对你不会是一间好事啊...

记得多年以前你也曾离乡背井出国打拼..
那时我还真的是年少无知..
不知道何谓离别..
现在知道也许我们要相隔多年才能见面
感觉..真的很不好..

当初是因为外公的去世所以你才回来然后留在马来西亚发展
现在..我不希望还有这种事发生..
我会努力的..我要自己去上海找你!
让我在上海当你的贵宾也好～

佛说前世500次回牟才换来今世一次的擦肩而过..
我们成为亲戚的缘分又是怎样形成的呢？

你可以放心去拼吧..
外婆我会尽量回去找她的..
无论如何这是我的责任之一..
更何况她现在很多时间都是一人独处了..
我更不舍让她感觉孤单..

在我心目中..
你一直都是一位非常杰出的人才..
无论创意..口才..能力..思考等都是..
只愿你能在中国上海闯出一片属于你自己的天空..
在上海这个繁华都市留下你的名字..你的脚印..


开始就注定了会有离别..

而

离别就注定了会有开始..


这次的分离是我们感情变好后而注定要发生的
但这次的分离也是注定我们总有一天会团聚的..

也许别人不觉得什么..
但亲戚..也许就跟兄弟一样..有今生没来世..
所以我不能不看重你..也没有办法不看重你..
但我知道你一定会拼出一番成绩的..
因为我从不觉得有人能否认你..
加油！

祝你..
一帆风顺..事事顺利..平安健康..

农历新年篇..(14/02/10-28/02/10)

农历新年就当然是要用华文啦
哈哈^^

正月十五才upload..><

今年的新年真的与以往不同..
第一年在新家过新年～
Puchong真的很远..亲戚都在KL..><

所以新年几乎每天都驾车Puchong - KL 来回酱..
累是累啦..不过还真的很开心的..

虽然我的新年没有什么特别的事情..
不过我真的很享受那种新年亲戚们聚在一起..
赌钱..谈天..吃东西..拜年..等等等等..
一个字！爽！哈～^^

除夕夜下很大雨..哥哥载我和妹妹下外婆家..
年初一也是..不过就已经很热了..
到初十好像都没下过真真的雨..=.=

今年过年还第一次去旅游胜地咧~福隆港～
以前都不出去的..真的长大了啦..^^

真的有好多好多回忆..
不过还是收着比较有感觉..
记录下来后回忆就好像总有一天会变淡..我不喜欢这感觉..><

年十二时..
我有上课...好像终于跟一班朋友混到比较熟了..
突然好像醒悟我的生活没有朋友真的是不能的..我会承受不了..
可能就是酱..我好像觉得我读书的热诚回来了..
虽然我真的不是很顶得住..
不过我会尽力的..!=)

新年要过完了..
还有339天才是兔年正月初一..
我真的不喜欢等酱久..><

啊～～真的很喜欢过年..喜欢跟朋友跟亲戚一起的感觉..
可是我又不喜欢时间的飞逝...
真矛盾..><

还有23个礼拜就完成我的year 1 !
加油 Melvin !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

再祝大家
新年快乐..新一年事事顺利..天天开心..身体健康..心想事成..
哈哈～恭喜恭喜～^^

假期

啊～
难得今天没有上课..
想upload blog了..

从上个星期四(28/01/10)到昨天星期二（02/02/10)
几乎每一天都是两点多三点才睡..
然后有时5点就要醒..
真是够力..
豆豆都多了咯...><

忙Assignment..(谢谢俊莉..我会请你吃冰淇淋的^^)
忙新春庙会
忙天后宫的活动..

其实好像没有很忙..作莫酱迟睡的？@@

忙完了有自然而然有那种空虚感了..

几乎整个礼拜都是跟学领的大家度过..
很多经历啊..

新春前的...
在jinjang一直兜路..
一起拔jagung..
还有很多很多的细节..

天后宫的...
哇佬..上天后宫那条路真的是够力斜..差一点就上不去..><
在永康家做那两扇门..我和ah wing又迟到..
在那边打球..玩捉迷藏..吃冷气饭店..
天桥底下的鱼和bak kut teh(不错好吃^^）
一辆车坐九个人..
帮ING做research..真的是超级无敌谢谢郑悠=)
然后去唱K..学领Nel Nel 两间房跑..
不过我真的没有力了..太累..><
所以没什么唱歌咯～
还有还有..在天后宫走姻缘道..
第一次走而已..
我心里只想着她..真的会造就一段姻缘给我吗？希望如此吧..^^

昨天就跟ah lui还有她的大佬等等的人去看戏..
迷路了整半个小时多...炸到！
不过ah lui讲她开心喔～那就好咯^^

回到家又是三点多～><

虽然假期就酱用完了..
不过我真的觉得其实我很享受跟朋友在一起的感觉的..
再累你们都会成为我的推动力的！

P/S:你问我几久..难道你不懂我讲的是你吗？
没办法..谁叫我总是把你的话当成金科玉律..永远是对的..
我会努力的..不过你还是会是第一的！

That's true

Care about those who care you..
Dont care about those who didnt care you..

Care about those things you need to care about..
Forget about those things you no need to care about..

That's all...

放手..

命里有时终须有..
命里无时莫强求..

酱简单的两句话难道我还不明白吗？
其实不是的..
只不过有一句话更贴切..

知易行难...

就像saimui说的..
男孩生命中都有三种花..
白莲花..红玫瑰..康乃馨..

一定要有三种吗？

真希望我的白莲花能成为我的康乃馨..

Announcement

This is an announcement from me..

No matter what I am doing..
That's my right to do that..
Please dont cross over my limit..

And..
Please believe me that I'm still single and dont guess anyhow..

In my heart that just one can stay inside..

If you know who is she..
Then better keep it as secret..

If you dont know who is she..
Then no need to know..
That is not as important as you think..

Sure I will tell you if I think that is require..

That's all what I want to announce about..
Good luck..
Miss my real friend sooooooooo much !!

Please..

I really hate those who read others text message without permission..


Dont think that you are my friend so that you can do that..


Why I sms and what i sms is my right ok ?
And why I dont want let you read it ?
That's my right too !!


I really feel dissapointed about that..
And dissapointed of the action of both of you..
Is this friends that what we meant ?


Do I still have my real friend ?


I hope that I have..
I really dont know who can I believe now..


Yup..
I am that kind person that hate someone read my message without my permission..

I didnt scold both of you not because i dont mind the action of both of you..
But is because i really felt that too dissapointed..
I really suddenly felt that dont have power to scold anyone..

What a dissapointed day..
*&%$#@*&

"HELP".."LAW"

Yup..
This is the university i choose..
And that is the course i take..


Yup..
This will be my final decision..
Wont change already..

Maybe I will regret in the future..
Maybe i cant get good result in the futute..
Maybe i cant do well in Law..
Maybe i cant pass it..

And there is still have a lot of 'Maybe' and 'in the future'..


But start from now..
I wont bother it anymore..


I wont defeat by myself..
That is the decision i made..
So i have to practise it !


Yeah !
When i am feeling tired..
All my friends..
You all will appear in my mind..
Hope you all dont mind ya..^^


Good luck to you all..
And hopefully to me too...


But luck wont be the everything..
Hardworking will take 99& in my mind..
If i didnt do so..
Please scold me..><


Ok...
Tomorrow will be a new start for me..


Bye~=)

Still in confused mood

Once you believe that you can do it
Then sure you can done it !

Is it true ?
I dont know..
But i hope so..

Although i'm still in confused mood..
But thanks so much to you all for care of me..
There's nothing else i can say..
Just hope that it will be fine soon..

Uni life..
Not as simple as i think..

Hope that i will make a right decision~

erm...

09/01/10 (saturday)
wake up not so early..
class start at 12.30pm
but i get the wrong way so that i just arrived at about 1.00pm..><
late for the first time in the first week..

Today's class quite fun actually..
at least i like the group discussion..
even though i just can talk with my broken english..@@

that's nth special for the class today..
just got the first assignment in my uni life~

Then back to Chong Hwa for the meeting of the leadership camp..
sorry..i was late..><
you all quite cool you know?
meeting for about 6++ hours..

Then we go to Hong Hong steamboat for fairwell ming wee..
seven person..
which is me,dai,junli,shimin,ah lui,hui li..
and sure...Ming Wee too^^

thx to you all...
i really didnt have fun like this day for long time..
i just feel comfortable and happiness..
i can just relax my mind and chat with you all..
nonid feeling stressful..
nonid facing you all with a hidden mask..
nonid feeling scary that will make you all angry..
and nonid doing such things that i hate..

Ya..i am sure..
i really like you all soooooooo much..
Now i am afraid of facing the stranger world..
Maybe we dont have few chance again to meet with..
but with this blogging..
I will remember that each second with you all..
and you all..sure will be one of the most important part in my heart and mind !!

Good luck to everyone..
And all the best for ming wee ya..coz she will be going to NS soon..><
Hope you wont become the mix up of me and ah dai lo~~^^

strange day

Actually i am thinking that the title should be 'bad day'..

Coz i dont think that i have a nice day today..><

still need to wake up before 6am..
Need to rush to HELP at around 7.30am...
That's really many car on the road..
so many early bird..@@

During the lecture class really feel quite boring..
Although the Criminal Law already started the lesson..
but unfortunately..i cant follow it and take down the notes at all..><
How can i still stay alive in the following day in HELP ??
I dont know..><

Then later went to MPH to have a look for the Law books..
its really quite expensive plus thick and boring book..><

Before arrived the MPH..
i hit my father's car bumper onto the wall at the car park..><
what can do..bad skill in driving..@@

then having teppanyaki with two of my classmates..
and meet unexpectedly with few friends and some of them was long time no see..
actually really dont have any special in today..

But my mood still feel very uncomfortable..
really a strange day..><
Although i think i know the reason..

and ya..today i knew few more friends in my class..
a malaysian..i think i just remember her name as 'Ann'..actually quite long her name..><

a saudi arabian..i think her name is 'Reeham'..i hope i have not mistaken..><

and a girl from sri lanka which have have a long long name..but i just can remember that her name start with J..that's why we all call her 'J'..she really like to smile..alomost in every second i can see her teeth out..^^

P/S:When the time we should fall in love..sure we will fall into..
By the time we have to alone..we will alone too.
If it is God wish..we hard to change it..if that is human wish,then actually it is God wish..
So whatever it is..we cant change it too...
Maybe sometimes we sholud not fight against the nature..

Oh ya..does you all know what means crime ??
it is something against the law..and bla bla bla...><

Just a new post in a new year

Well...
This is the first time i blogging since 2010..
actually almost a month i put it there..
many of you sure think that i stop blogging already right ??

Ok..
Firstly,
i dont know what i want to say..
maybe start from head of december..
but actually there is nothing to say about also..><

22-12-1991
My 18th birthday
dont be shock..i am almost whole day stay in house..
just when around 10.30pm i drive and fetch someone go around puchong..
yup..is go around puchong and do nothing more..
just as accompany me to over my 18th birthday..
quite funny isit ?
I feel happy actually but dont know was she ?
I hope she might..

Then christmas celebrate with classmate at sayon's house
BBQ plus play that dont know what things..><
not bad..

really nothing to do actually
just help ah wing in the leadership camp
4 days 3 nights
busy and tired til wanna die..><
hope they all will get positive result
I and those who already graduate sure will wishing you all the best de !
Good luck ^^

then is new year and celebrating of junli's birthday..

04-01-10
The orientation day for the law department..
yup..i am choosing the law course..
that's why i am blogging with my poorly english..><
Pls forgive me if there is too many mistake..

the following day..
05-01-10,07-01-10
i start my class and also meet those lecturer..
actually quite fun they all..
but i still in holoday mood..
hope that i can change my mind as soon as possible..><

Am i in university life ?
yes..maybe..i think..
But this really a tiring life..
i prefer chong hwa more and more..
for all those who still in chong hwa..
pls cherish your time and dont be regret in your future !

p/s:dont know my birthday wishes can come true or not ?hope it will be realize..^^
And hope that i still have chance to bloging and not so busy for my uni life..

A very happy new year to all my friend and wish you all all the best in the new year..=)